ME; THE GIRL WITH THE VIOLIN
PIMPED BY HER FAMILY...Based on real lived experiences.
MY MOTHER, AUNT AND SOME FAMILY MEMBERS USE TO ASK;
IS SHE DEAD YET?
I'M STILL ALIVE BECAUSE
THE CREATOR (GODS/ANGELS)
KNEW I WAS INNOCENT...I DID NOT STEAL UNCLE BENNY'S MONEY!
NOW THERE'S WORK TO DO!
AHHH, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL BABY, THE LOOK OF A FAMOUS LAWYER, SOMETHING HAPPENED ALONG THE WAY BUT AS YOU CAN SEE ALL THAT HORROR AND SCARS WAS INSTILLED IN ME, I DID NOT COME IN THIS WORLD FILLED WITH THAT. THAT LIGHT THAT SHINE IN THOSE EYES CAN SHINE AGAIN, THAT LAUGHTER AND LOVE THAT WAS FILLED WITHIN ME WILL SURFACE AGAIN, DO YOU REMEMBER YOURSELF? NOT THE SELF SOME DEHUMANIZED PERSON CREATED BUT, YOU, HOW YOU CAME IN THIS WORLD? PICTURES CAN HELP US REGAIN THOSE FEELING OF JUST HOW BEAUTIFUL WE ARE. DON'T THROW YOURSELF AWAY THROW THE GARBAGE AWAY. SHINE, SHINE, SHINE, THE LIGHT IS ON, WE CAN'T BE AFRAID TO LOOK AT IT. SMILES, LOVE, AND LAUGHTER.....oH; I WAS ONE YEARS OLD ON THE PICTURE BELOW GOSH I CAN REALLY FEEL HOW I FELT WHEN THE PICTURE WAS TAKEN...JENNIFER/QUEENJSILKOFHEARTS
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Jennifer Lynn Jackson,
Contact number; (213) 713-9623
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**COMING SOON THE BOOK; "ROSE WATER" a collection of inspiring poem & short stories by my mother, Rosalee G. Jackson
THIS SITE IS ALSO DEDICATED TO: YOUTH AND PARENTS FROM DIVERSE COMMUNITIES AROUND THE NATION~Jennifer/Jsilk
ON OUR JOURNEY OF RECOVERY
By; Jennifer Lynn "Jsilk" Jackson
On our journey of recovery we will run into obstacles from time to time. Some we can easily just go around. Some we have to ask for guidance from our Higher Power on how to get around. But we must find a way. We can not stay stuck, then we become like stagnated water, unable to flow and polluted again.
Here’s a poem from the book I wrote, THE STREETS, MY CRADLE pg. xiii;
WHAT DO YOU ACCEPT
One day I was walking down the street.
I smelt something & wondered could that be me?
I took a shower, I knew I had.
Could that still be me smelling so bad?
Then God said it wasn’t my underarms or my feet. But, all the garbage that had been dumped in me.
Because God cleaned me up I now smell oh so good!
And I don’t accept what I normally would.
LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT OF PROSTITUTION?
WHERE EVER YOU ARE CALL;
"THE MARY MAGDALENE PROJECT"
AND DON'T ACCEPT WHAT YOU NORMALLY WOULD
WE ARE SPECIAL...
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DON'T FORGET TO ORDER YOUR COPY OF "THE STREETS, MY CRADLE" TODAY I COULD USE THE SUPPORT & SOMEONE COULD USE THE EXPERIENCE WITHOUT EXPERIENCING IT. KEEPING IT REAL. SEE TESTAMONIALS, INTERVIEWS & REVIEWS ON "ABOUT THE AUTHOR" PAGE ~ Jennifer/Jsilk
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***WE CAN NOT FORGET; THE DEVELOPMENTALLY DISABLED COMMUNITY; YOUNG WOMEN/MEN WITH THE BODY OF A WOMAN/MAN AND THE MIND OF A 7 YEAR OLD CHILD THAT'S BEING CO-ERCED INTO PROSTITUTION CALL;
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SILENCE WILL KILL YOU, END THE SILENCE ON SEXUAL ABUSE AND DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SAVE A LIFE AND/OR SAVE YOUR OWN, SPEAK OUT!!!
REMEMBER THE LAND OF OZ IS JUST A FANTASY
DON'T RUN AWAY FROM HOME CALL 1-800-RUNAWAY, IF YOU NEED SOME HELP!!
I'M NOT AFRAID OF THE DARK ANYMORE BECAUSE OF YOUR LIGHT~JENNIFER/JSILK/SUNSHINE
ME RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME LIKE DOROTHY DID NOT LAND ME IN A PAIR OF RUBY RED SLIPPERS. BUT A PAIR OF SHOES THAT TOOK THIRTY YEARS TO TAKE OFF; SWAYING IN AND OUT OF WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE NORM,WHERE I THOUGHT I FIT IN. IT LED TO ME GETTING RAPED A TOTAL OF ELEVEN TIMES BETWEEN THE AGE OF 5 YEARS OLD UNTIL 2004. HIT IN THE HEAD WITH WHAT I KNOW NOW WAS A BREAK SHOE, HIT IN THE HEAD WITH A FOURTY ONCE BOTTLE, STRANGLED UNTIL THE BLOOD VESSELS IN MY EYES WERE BUSTED. AND SO MUCH MORE ABUSE. HAD I NOT FOUGHT BACK, HAD I BUCKLED UNDER, HAD I GIVEN INTO FEAR, HAD I NOT ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT, THE RAPEST, THE KILLERS; HAD I BLINKED FOR ONE MINUTE, I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN HERE TO SHARE THIS STORY WITH YOU TODAY.
HOW I GOT ON A PATH OF HEALING, SOBRIETY AND RECOVERY? PURCHASE YOUR COPY OF, "THE STREETS, MY CRADLE" FOR MORE INFORMATION.
AT THE AGE OF TWELVE (12) FALSE LOVE AND ATTENTION FROM THIS PIMP WHO PORTRAYED HIMSELF AS MY BOYFRIEND) LED TO ME GETTING BEAT WITH A WIRE CLOTHES HANGER. HE WOULD SHOW UP TO MY SCHOOL EVERY DAY, BACK AND FORTH UNTIL HE GAINED MY TRUST. HE TOOK ME TO A MOTEL TOLD ME TO TAKE OFF MY CLOTHES AND BEGAN TO BEAT ME VICIOUSLY WITH THE WIRE CLOTHES HANGER. THANK GOD I WAS FORTUNATE ENOUGH TO ESCAPE. WHEN I WAS SENT OUT ON THE STREET TO WORK THE FIRST CUSTOMER WHO PULLED THEIR CAR OVER I JUMPED IN, SHOWED HIM MY SCARS FROM THE HANGER AND BEGGED HIM NOT TO TURN AROUND. TO KEEP DRIVING, HE DID, I HAD HIM DROP ME OFF AT A SAFE PLACE A DISTANCE AWAY, THAT IS HOW I ESCAPED. I NEVER WENT BACK TO THAT SCHOOL OR TOLD MY FAMILY ABOUT IT. INFACT MEMORIES OF THE ENTIRE ORDEAL WAS SUPPRESSED FOR YEARS AND ACTED OUT DISPLACING MY ANGER ON OTHERS FOR YEARS.
AS YOU ALREADY KNOW SOME MAY NOT SURVIVE. "DON'T HIDE THE TRUTH FROM THE YOUTH" BECAUSE THEIR CURIOSITY, THEIR PAIN AND THEIR ANGER COULD LEAD THEM TO THE STREETS AND A LIFE OF CRIME... WHERE'S THE LOVE? NOT ON THE STREETS BUT, IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE AT "HOME." BRING IT BACK...
SOMETHING TO REMEMBER; WE HAVE TO THINK; REMEMBER THE STORY OF, "LITTLE RED RIDINGHOOD" GOSH THAT WAS A STORY WARNING US ABOUT ALL THE "BIG BAD WOLVES IN THIS WORLD" THINK ABOUT IT... MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES...
"What do you wanna be when you grow up?" "How can we get 50 cents or a dolla?"
"NOT LIKE THEM..." "NOT LIKE THAT..."
YES I TOOK THE WRONG JOURNEY, BUT I CAN REMEMBER MY MOM SAYING, "MAN (PEOPLE) MEANT IT FOR BAD BUT, GOD MEANS IT FOR GOOD". RUNNING TO THE STREETS, WAS A HORRIFYING EXPERIENCE. LETS NOT LET ANOTHER CHILD TRAVEL ON THAT PATH OR LOSE ONE ON IT..., "THE PAST WAS AN ACCIDENT, THE FUTURE IS MINE" (YOURS!)~JAMES HOKE/JSILK
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RUNNING AWAY? THE STREETS IS "NO PLACE TO CALL HOME......"
A SAFE PLACE:
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****CHILDREN OF THE NIGHT****
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I AM NOT A PSYCHIATRIST, A PSYCHOLOGIST OR A PSYCHO-ANALYST. BUT, PSYCHOLOGY IS MY MAJOR, SOCIOLOGY MY MINOR AND I HAVE OVER THIRTY YEARS OF REAL LIVED EXPERIENCES IN THE STREET LIFE, SHARING WHAT I LEARNED, LIGHT AND HOW I GOT ON A PATH OF HEALING/RECOVERY...
REMEMBER; "THE ULTIMATE CHOICE IS ALWAYS YOURS"~JSILK
EDUCATE & FIGHT TO END CHILD EXPLOITATION!
1-800-A WAY OUT
HAND CUT ON A CRACK PIPE
USE YOUR LIGHT FOR LIFE~JSILK
"ONES TEETH COULD END UP LOOKING LIKE THIS FROM USING DRUGS AND NO DENTAL CARE. WHEN SOMEONE ASK YOU TO TEST SOMETHING FOR THEM, PLEASE BEWARE"~JSILK
ALSO CAN LEAD TO YOU LOOKING LIKE THIS
This is a real photo of a 16 year old whose body is covered in abscesses
"ONLY SOMEONE WITHOUT A HEAD ENDS UP WITH A BODY LIKE THIS...USE YOUR HEAD, DON'T LOOSE YOUR HEAD"~ JSILK
"THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO SUCCESS...WHOEVER OR WHATEVER GAVE YOU THE KEYS TO JAIL/PRISON GIVE THEM BACK AND TELL THEM YOU DON'T WANT THE KEYS TO THAT DOOR"...JSILK
"IF THE CAT DID NOT TAKE YOUR TONGUE WHO DID? SPEAK OUT ABOUT ABUSE. IF YOU'RE HAVING A PROBLEM DON'T HOLD IT IN, YOU COULD BE SAVING YOUR OWN LIFE BY TELLING A PARENT OR A FRIEND"~JSILK
RUNNING AWAY? JUMPING IN CARS WITH STRANGERS? YOUR SILENCE, A PARENTS SILENCE? MAKING ALL THOSE WRONG CHOICES SEEN IN THE PICTURES ABOVE CAN ALSO LEAD TO...
"YOUR LIFE AND YOUR BODY IS "YOURS" DON'T LET IT GO TO WASTE, DON'T LET IT BE THROWN AWAY"~JSILK
THE RIGHT CHOICE...
"IF THERE IS NO ONE TO STAND UP FOR YOU, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF."JSILK
"NO ONE CAN WALK FOR YOU, YOU TAKE THE FIRST STEP" JSILK
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MY MOTHER AND I AT TRUCKEE RIVER, FEBRUARY 24, 2014. NO MATTER WHAT PATH YOU TAKE IN LIFE, ALWAYS BE RESPECTFUL TO YOUR PARENTS, NO MATTER WHERE THEY ARE IN LIFE. ESPECIALLY YOUR MOTHER BECAUSE,"THERE'S GOD AND THEN THERE'S MOMMA (MOTHERS)"
BECAUSE WE CARE
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A SPECIAL MESSAGE:
There are a lot of males out there who have also been physically and sexually abused. I want you to know that this site is for you also. I write with both male and females in mind. Fathers, brothers, Uncles, Grandfathers, (and mothers), should remember that teaching young men to respect women/young girls feelings and their boundaries is a part of growing up. Don't just teach them the game of football (sports) but the game of life, and start with respect, respect for others and themselves. The value of honesty and trust. When you don't have a dollar in your pocket, your word if it is good can get you plenty. When our young men feel better about themselves then they will treat our young women better. It starts with you and if your attitude is bitter toward women and disrespectful then you are passing that on to your sons. Give them the chance to see women, young girls through their own eyes, and the chance to see just how beautiful we are. It goes hand and hand.
DON'T FORGET THE CHILDREN!!!
"DON'T IGNORE MY CHILD'S CRIES"BY AUTHOR
JENNIFER L. JACKSON
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THE CINDERELLA, CINDE-FELLA: One fact that helps re-build a persons self esteem and confidence after a persons been robbed of it due to the horrific act of sexual abuse or any form of abuse it is necessary to; STOP accepting what others feel and think about you. Step out of the image others have formed of you/create a new you and become the person your Higher Power created you to be. Then you can see and be prepared for that he or she that holds...
THE OTHER SHOE
first to the Creator & myself. A very special thanks to my mother, Rosalee Griffin-Jackson. I sit here and cry thinking about all the time we did not have together. And as I think about my horrific/abnormal childhood and some horrible things I went through as an adult and I ask myself and the creator "why me?", nah it's not a pity party, but "why me?" (gosh I miss you Mom) and can remember a lot of your teachings and one was, "try to find the good in every bad situation, there's good in it, you just have to find it." "WHY ME?" Well if not me then who else would have the courage to fight for the lives of children, the understanding of the mindset of children who have ran away, children involved in prostitution, children sexually abused?" And adults who had the same or similar ugly childhood experiences? (Turning it into a positive by looking for the good in it, I DID!) And although you are no longer here in the physical world, I hope you can hear me, I found the good in all the horror, I found the good. You didn't have ANY control over the course of my life; I was groomed through the street life, because of all the children that need to be saved from it. PEOPLE MEANT IT FOR BAD, MY HIGHER POWER MEANS IT FOR GOOD. What I learned I can share with another to help PREVENT their LIVES from BEING the way my past was. Smile down on me Mom, I love you and thank you for never giving up fighting, It taught me not to either. LIGHT HOUSE....
TO MY CRUELEST TEACHER, UNCLE ROY WILLIAMS JR. ONE DAY I WILL THANK YOU FOR YOUR CRUELNESS. FOR THE WAY YOU CHOSE FOR ME TO LIVE I GAINED WISDOM, UNDERSTANDING, STRENGTH, COOURAGE, COMPASSION, GIFTS. BECAUSE OF THE KNOWLEDGE AND OTHER GIFTS I GAINED FROM THE EXPERIENCES GROWING UP ON THE STREET UNDER YOUR INFLUENCE. GIFTS THAT ONE DAY WILL MAKE ME LOTS OF MONEY AND HELP ME TO HELP LOTS OF CHILDREN ON THEIR JOURNEY...NOT TO GET CAUGHT BY THE DRIFTERS CREW...NOT TO GET CAUGHT BY A GUY LIKE YOU. ONE DAY UNCLE ROY,"I WILL SAY THANK YOU"
Kenneth Holley Sr. I still can not find the words to express my gratitude. Can you? THANK YOU!!!
Hey! I FOUND THEM and published them in the second book I wrote, Don't Ignore My Child's Cries," I express them in a poem titled, "A SECRET" HAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I LOVE YOU...you friend, QueenJSilkofHearts
"A GUIDING LIGHT FOR THOSE WHO HAVE LOST THEIR WAY AND THOSE WHO WERE TAKEN OFF THEIR PATH..."JENNIFER/QUEENJSILKOFHEARTS